Shannon Bradshaw Trust

POEMS

YOU MADE MY WORLD A HAPPY ONE

Mummy and daddy please don’t be sad
My suffering has ended of which I am glad
I’ve spoken to Jesus he’s shown me the way
To a place that’s so special that’s all I can say

I see in your hearts and I’m feeling your pain
I see that you’re crying again and again
But mummy and daddy I love you so much
I’m here all around you; You just can’t see or feel my touch

I wish I could hug you and tell you I’m ok
One more hug, a little kiss, maybe just one more day
I know this can’t happen now that I’m at rest
I know you won’t believe me when I say it’s for the best

Now I am an angel up in the sky above
I’m feeling pain at leaving you but I see and feel your love
Don’t think I’m far away mummy, I know you need me too
I’ll put my arms around your neck and whisper I love you

Jesus told me why you’re sad, you have to say goodbye
Daddy you’re so big and strong it hurts to see you cry
You made my world a happy one and it’s hard to let me go
Jesus say’s we’ll meet again, but when I just don’t know.

Written by: Dianne Lamb

Each life is a miracle that changes the world
and leaves it a better place than it was before.

MY HERO, MY DADDY

Daddy your my hero, you always saved the day,
If I was hurt and crying, you wiped my tears away,
you’d wrap me in your big strong arms, and I was 10ft tall

I was never frightened, because my Daddy wouldn’t let me fall.
I feel your hurt and see your pain, but there’s nothing I can do,
I wish that you could hear me say how much I still LOVE YOU,
please change the way your thinking, it’s something you have to do,

I know my mummy and my sister’s could never live, without you.
I’m with my friends and family, and I see you every day,
I know that you can’t see me, but you see the tricks I play,
I will be okay daddy, so there is no need to cry,

I haven’t gone away, there’s no need to say good-bye.
I wish I could answer your question and tell you the reason why,
if just to ease your pain a little, daddy my spirit will never die,
Jesus said if you knew the reason it still wouldn’t ease your pain,

So let me be YOUR HERO DADDY, and save you just the same.

MY PRECIOUS CHILD

There’s not a day that passed
That i don’t sit and cry
And look to Heaven for a reason
But still i don’t know why.
Couldn’t he have waited
Another year or two
Untill you were a little older
And i’d had more time with you.
Forgive me, Lord, i then say
All these thoughts are wrong
There had to be a reason
And i know i must be strong.
You’re in the arms of Jesus now
And i know that you’ll be fine
But i wish with all my heart
That those arms could be mine.

THE GREATEST GIFT OF ALL

A parents greatest gift, a daughter sweet and fair
A daughter to be loved, with tenderness and care.
Each morning as you rise, your ray of beauty shines
Our hearts were truly blessed, to share such precious times.
We remember all the joy, we remember all the love
But your time on earth was short, and you shine from up above.
At night we know you see us, as the stars shine on our home
You sit beside the Lord above, we know your not alone.

Rob Bristol

MY FRIEND JESUS

Please celebrate my passing
for it’s the day that I went home
I’m sat with my friend Jesus
on the biggest golden throne

he said that I’m too beautiful
for the world in which you live
he said that I had things to do
showing people how to give

I know your hurt because I left
but my life has just begun
I am still growing, making friends
and having lots of fun

I know it’s hard for you to see
the things, that I do
Jesus said you find it hard
to believe that this is true

I know you love me with all your heart
but Jesus loves me too
mummy he’s a gentle man
and puts all his trust in you.

SHANNON – A BEAUTIFUL LIFE

I’m just standing here, my life passing before my eye’s
This must be a dream, my tears keep flowing, I can hear the cries
The music is playing your favorite band,
I can see us singing, walking hand in hand
I close my eye’s and your still here,
all of my pain just dissappears,
My ray of sunshine, you are so giving,
A beautiful life, my reason for living.

I open my eye’s into my nightmare
standing around are people who care,
I don’t want them, I only want you,
without you in my life, what am I to do
I close my eye’s and your still here
all of my pain just dissappears
my ray of sunshine, you are so giving,
A beautiful life, my reason for living.

The man in the cloth is speaking your name,
he watched you grow and feels my pain,
he is on the outside, looking straight through
but can he see, I’m nothing without you,
I close my eye’s and your still here
all of my pain just dissappears,
my ray of sunshine, you are so giving
A beautiful life, my reason for living.

The day has ended, it’s time to go home,
I feel so empty, my hearts turned to stone
If i close my eye’s i can feel you near,
your things all around me as though your still here
I close my eye’s and your not there,
all of my pain is to hard to bare
my ray of sunshine, you were so giving,
without you here, I’ve no reason for living.

IN THE ARMS OF JESUS

Daddy please don’t be sad, Mummy please don’t cry
Cause I am in the arms of Jesus an he sings me lullabies
Please try not to question God, Don’t think he is unkind
Don’t think he sent me to you and then changed his mind
You see, I am a special Child and I am needed up above
I’m the special gift you gave him, the product of your love
I’ll always be there with you so watch the sky at night
Find the brightest star thats gleaming thats my Halo’s brilliant light
You’ll see me in the mornings frost that mists your windowpane
Thats me, in the summer showers I’ll be dancing in the rain
When you feel a gentle breeze from a gentle wind that blows
That’s me, I’ll be there planting a kiss upon your nose
When you see a child playing and your heart gives a little tug
That’s me, I’ll be there, giving your heart a great big hug
So Daddy please don’t look so sad and Mummy don’t you cry
I’m in the arms of Jesus and he’s singing me lullabies

Good Night & God Bless

I LOVE YOU

MY MOM IS A SURVIVOR

My Mom is a survivor or so I’ve heard it said
but I can hear her crying at night when all others are in bed
I watch her lay awake at night and go to hold her hand
She doesn’t know I’m with her to help her understand
But like the sands on the beach I’ll never wash away…
I watch over my surviving Mom who thinks of me each day
She wears a smile for others… A smile of disguise!
But through Heavens door I see tears flowing from her eyes
My Mom tries to cope with death to keep my memory alive
But anyone who knows her knows it is her way to survive
As I watch over my surviving Mom through Heavens open door…
I try to tell her that angels protect me forevermore
I know that doesn’t help her… or ease the burden she bears
So if you get a chance, go visit her…and show her that you care
For no matter what she says… no matter what she feels
My surviving mom has a broken heart that time won’t ever heal.

OUR LITTLE ANGEL

You’ve just walked on ahead of us
So we’ve got to understand
We must release the ones we love
And let go of their hand.
We try and cope the best We can
But were missing you so much
If we could only see your face
And once more just feel your touch.
Yes, you’ve just walked on ahead of us
Don’t worry we’ll be fine
But now and then I swear I feel
Your little hand, slip into mine.

GODS LOAN

I’ll lend you for a little time, a child of mine he said,
For you to love the while she lives, and mourn for when she’s dead,
It may be six or seven months, or twenty years or three.
But will you till I call her back, take care of her for me.
She’ll bring her charms to gladden you and should her stay be brief.
You’ll have her lovely memories as solice for your grief.
I cannot promise she will stay, since all from earth return.
But there are lessons taught down there I want my child to learn.
Ive looked this wide world over in my search for teachers true,
And from the throngs that crowd lifes lanes, I have selected you.
Now will you give her all your love, don’t think the labour vain,
Nor hate me when I come to call to take her back again.
I fancied that I heard you say, Dear Lord, thy will be done.
For all the joy thy child shall bring, the risk of grief we’ll run.
We’ll shelter her with tenderness, we’ll love her while we may.
And for the happiness we’ve known, forever grateful stay.
But should the Angels call for her much sooner than we planned,
We’ll brave the bitter grief that comes and try to understand

HEAVENLY STAR

When God turns out the lights at night
He looks down to make sure
We’ve enough light untill morning
And if he thinks that we need more
He adds another star or two
From his little store
And when they need replacing

He reaches down for more.
The stars are all his children
He’s taken from below
He doesn’t tell us which are ours
We never, ever know
So if you find you have the chance
No matter where you are
Look up at the sky tonight

It’s got a brand new star.

Alan G

CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN

I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below,
with tiny lights like heavens stars reflecting on the snow.
The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away that tear,
for i am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear,
but the sound of music can’t compare with the Christmas choir up here.
For i have no words to tell you the joy their voices bring,
for it is beyond description to hear an angel sing.

I know how much you miss me, I see inside your heart,
But i am not so far away, we are really not apart.
So be happy for me loved ones, you know i hold so dear,
and be glad i’m spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I send you each a special gift from my heavenly home above,
I send you each a memory of my undying love.
For after all LOVE is more precious than pure gold,
It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.

So please love and help each other as my father said to do,
for i cannot count the blessings of the love he has for you.
So have a merry Christmas and wipe away that tear,
for i am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I can’t tell you of the splendour or the peace here in this place,
can you just imagine Christmas with our saviour face to face.
I’ll ask him to lift your spirit as i tell him of your love,
so then pray for one another as you lift your eyes above.

So please let your hearts be joyful, and let your spirits sing,
For I am spending Christmas in heaven,
and I’m walking with the KING.

What is Normal after your child dies?

Normal is having tears waiting behind every smile when you realize someone important is missing from all the important events in your family’s life.
Normal is trying to decide what to take to the cemetery for Birthdays and Christmas

Normal is feeling like you can’t sit another minute without getting up and screaming, because you just don’t like to sit through anything anymore.

Normal is not sleeping very well because a thousand what if’s & why didn’t I’s go through your head constantly.

Normal is reliving the event continuously through your eyes and mind, holding your head to make it go away.

Normal is every happy event in your life always being backed up with sadness lurking close behind, because of the hole in your heart.

Normal is telling the story of your child’s death as if it were an everyday, commonplace activity, and then seeing the horror in someone’s eyes at how awful it sounds. And yet realizing it has become a part of your “normal.”

Normal is each year coming up with the difficult task of how to honour your child’s memory and their birthday and survive these days. Happy Birthday? Not really.

Normal is having some people afraid to mention my daughter,

Normal is making sure that others remember her.

Normal is after the funeral is over everyone else goes on with their lives, but we continue to grieve our loss forever.

Normal is weeks, months, and years after the initial shock, the grieving gets worse, not better.

Normal is not listening to people compare anything in their life to this loss, unless they too have lost a child. Nothing compares.

NOTHING.

Losing a parent is horrible, but having to bury your own child is unnatural.

Normal is taking pills, and trying not to cry all day, because you know your mental health depends on it.

Normal is being impatient with everything and everyone.

Normal is not listening to people make excuses for God.

“God may have done this because…”

Normal is being too tired to care if you paid the bills, cleaned the house, did the laundry or if there is any food.

Normal is wondering this time whether you are going to say you have 3 children or 2 children, because you will never see this person again and it is not worth explaining that Shannon is dead.

And yet when you say you have 2 children to avoid that problem, you feel horrible as if you have betrayed the dead child.

Normal is asking God why he took your child’s life instead of yours and asking if there even is a God.

Normal is knowing you will never get over this loss, not in a day nor a million years.

Normal is learning to lie to everyone you meet and telling them you are fine. You lie because it makes others uncomfortable if you cry. You’ve learned it’s easier to lie to them then to tell them the truth that you still feel empty and it’s probably never going to get any better — ever.

And last of all…

Normal is hiding all the things that have become “normal” for you to feel , so that everyone around you will think that you are “normal.”

EVERLASTING LIFE

When death walks by with quiet tread
To touch a loved one who’s then led
Away from sleep away from pain

To wake in joy to live again.
You’ll hear her on a whispered breeze
A calling bird, in swaying trees
Do not weep long, but lift your eyes

You’ll see her glory in Gods skies.
She’ll be there in a swallow’s flight
Her eyes in stars on a velvet night
Her courage strong in every tree

Her name carved well, for Eternity.
Hide not your love within your heart
For she will always be a part
Of you and everything you do
For death is nought, when Love is true.

Its you I miss

It’s you I miss
See my photo, see my Kiss,
In my heart, It’s you i miss.
Although the angels hold me tight,
It’s you that I miss every night.
Although my time on earth was short,
I recall the love your smile brought.
I watch you here from Heaven above,
and guide you safely with my Love.
And in the arms of God I dwell,
My Illness gone, now I am Well.
My body no longer suffers pain,
Goodnight untill we meet again.

By Rob Bristol.

A LETTER FROM HEAVEN

To my dearest family, some things i’d like to say.
But, first of all, to let you know, that i arrived okay.
I’m writing this from heaven, here i dwell with God above.
Here, there’s no more tears of sadness, just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy just because i’m out of sight.
Remember that i am with you every morning, noon and night.
That day i had to leave you when my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged me and said, I welcome you.
It’s good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they’ll be here but later on.
I need you here badly, you’re part of my plan.
There’s so much we have to do, to help our mortal man.
God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night the day’s chores put to flight.
God and i are closest to you … in the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years.
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry, it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.
I wish that i could tell you all that God had planned.
If i were to tell you, you wouldn’t understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o’er.
I’m closer to you now than i ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb.
But together we can do it by taking, one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and i’d like it for you, too:
That as you give unto this world, the world will give to you.
If you can help somebody who’s in sorrow and in pain.
Then you can say to God at night… ”My day was not in vain.”
And now I’m contented…that my life was worthwhile.
Knowing as i passed along the way I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
Just lend a hand to pick them up, as on your way you go.
When your walking down the street and you’ve got me on your mind,
I’m walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.
And when it’s time for you to go…from that body to be free,
Remember you’re not going… your coming here to ME.

Its you I miss

It’s you I miss
See my photo, see my Kiss,
In my heart, It’s you i miss.
Although the angels hold me tight,
It’s you that I miss every night.
Although my time on earth was short,
I recall the love your smile brought.
I watch you here from Heaven above,
and guide you safely with my Love.
And in the arms of God I dwell,
My Illness gone, now I am Well.
My body no longer suffers pain,
Goodnight untill we meet again.

By Rob Bristol.

AN ANGEL NAMED SHANNON

Upon the earth I was your child in arms

you shared with me your laughter and your tears

I took so much Love from the time we had together

Though the time we had was only a few years.

Through your eyes I saw the world living in peace

with your words I heard the Love that we all seek

with your Spirit I saw the strength of a lady, so sweet

with your tenderness, I saw a person so mild and meek

As I watch you now from my seat in Heaven

i am very often joined by Jesus, who then sits by my side

I open up a cloud and I point down to you

I tell Jesus ”thats my mother” and she fills me with pride.

Rob Bristol.

SHANNON

Born pure of face, elegance and grace

A daughter so fair, beauty so rare.

A radiant child, so meek and mild.

Growing by the hour, a seed to aflower.

Summer was so short, an illness you caught

Autumn stole your leaves, how my heart grieves.

You were only seven, recalled to Heaven.

An english rose, in Gods garden grows.

Rob Bristol.

SHANNON – A Bouquet of Beautiful Memories.

A bouquet of beautiful memories, Sprayed with a million tears,

Wishing God could have spared you, If just for a few more years.

We cannot bring the old days back, When we were all together,

The family chain is broken now, But memories live forever.

Along the road to yesterday, That leads us straight to you,

Are memories of happy days, Together we once new.

A silent grief thats in our hearts, No human eye can trace,

For many a broken heart is hid, Beneath a smiling face.

Love and miss you so much babe,

Mummy, Daddy, Alana and Danielle.

LITTLE ANGEL

At night when we look to the skies and see a twinkling star,
that SPARKLES brighter than the rest, we know that’s where you are.
Because you’re in a special place that’s not so far away,
a place of PEACE and endless love where angels dance and play.
Little Angel, you meant everything but heaven made you free,
to dance with joy among the clouds for all ETERNITY….

Engraved upon an Angels face

Everyday we share a tear, wishing you were really here,
Sharing in your charming grace, engraved upon your beautiful face.
As time slowly passes by, we search for Angels in the sky,
The Lord would surely give you wings, what endless pleasure this image brings.
Everyday we send our love, our treasured daughter up above,
One day we shall walk arm in arm, blessed are they with Heavenly charm.
Until that day , we share a tear, in our hearts you are here,
With your charm and Heavenly Grace, engraved upon an Angels face…….

OUR LITTLE ANGEL

I’m just a small child, not much do I know,
God holds onto my hand as I look down below.
I’m here with the Father in the most beautiful place,
Yet I can’t see much joy when I see your sad face.
Your heart has been broken, I can see from up here,
as you struggle along and you wipe every tear.
If only I had words I could send you today,
that would tell you I’m home and really okay.
Heaven is beautiful with sparkles and white wings,
and the angels are teaching me so many things.
I’ll grow and mature in this heavenly land,
while holding on tightly to my Fathers soft hand.
Then one day you’ll join me in this home in the skies,
Our joy will be full with no more goodbyes.
So don’t grieve for me now but find peace in your soul,
and know God has finally made your little one whole.
Now, even if you can’t seem to understand why,
please know in your heart that our love didn’t die.
He tells me that just for a time we must wait,
and then I can meet you at Heavens front gate.

LETTER FROM HEAVEN

When tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not there to see.
If the sun should rise and find your eyes, filled with tears for me.

I wish so much you wouldn’t cry, the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.

I know how much you love me, as much as I love you.
And each time you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too.

When tomorrow starts without me, don’t think were far apart,
For every time you think of me, I’m right there in your heart.

Lots of Love: Shannon xxx